Amelia yanks her arm away. What does she mean by…say all I need to say? As she approaches his room, she takes a deep breath and walks in. The moment she lays eyes on him she bursts into tears. This is harder than I thought. She pulls herself together and walks closer to him. He’s so still and helpless as his chest moves up and down in time with the ventilator. As she leans over and kisses his forehead, she realizes that his olive-toned color is fading and his skin is cool to the touch. This makes her depressed and irritated because all of this could’ve been avoided. She carefully sits on the edge of the bed and stares at the mannequin that used to be her father.
“Hey, Dad, it’s me, Amelia. I’m not sure if you can hear me, but I want you to know that I love you so much and I wish you would wake up. Please, Dad, open your eyes. Mom and I need you here. We have a trip to take, and we can’t go without you. Squeeze my hand if you can hear me.” She waits in anticipation, hoping for a miracle, but there’s no movement. She lays her head on his chest and cries uncontrollably. After a while, she realizes that he wouldn’t want her crying over him like this. “Dad, I have to leave now. I’ll be staying with Leona for a while. I don’t want you to worry about me, I’ll be okay. Just get better and be strong. Fight as hard as you can to come back to us. I love you, and I know I will see you again soon. Bye,” she whispers as she kisses his cheek.
She walks out of the room red-faced with tears streaming. As hard as it is to leave him, she knows it’s time to get on with it. A nurse walks over to her and smiles.
“Are you okay, sweetie? I know it was hard to see your father like that,” she says while handing Amelia a tissue.
“Yes, I’m going to be fine. I’m not used to seeing him so…so…I don’t know.” She wipes her face.
“Well, I wanted you to know that we have a support group here in the hospital if you ever want to talk to someone. By the way, are you going to be staying with your aunt, or is there another family member you can stay with? You know you can’t stay by yourself.”
“Yes, I’ll be staying with my aunt and my two cousins sitting over there. Aren’t they lovely?” she whispers sarcastically.