She knows her mom is probably somewhere worried out of her mind and desperately wishes she could tell her what she knows. There is no great news to report, except that he’s not dead. Wow, dead. Thinking of her father and death in the same sentence makes her stomach turn. She buries her head in her hands as her eyes well up with tears. It takes all the strength she can muster not to scream. Morbid thoughts race through her mind and she has no idea how to shut it off. She needs some sort of guidance, so she dries her face and heads to the chapel to follow the doctor’s advice.
When she steps into the small six-row chapel, an overwhelming force rushes through her body, making her drop to her knees. She puts her hands together and closes her eyes on cue, almost as if someone is mechanically controlling her. Praying isn’t exactly her strong suit, so she says what’s in her heart. “God, I know I have no right to ask you for anything and I haven’t been to confession in, like, forever, but please let my father come out of this okay, and please protect my mother wherever she is. I also ask for strength to survive my family and the courage to stand up for myself. Even though I have no willpower to go on, please help me get through this. Lastly, I pray that no weapons formed against me shall prosper. Amen.”
The moment she stands to her feet, she feels like her prayers are being answered and that God knows exactly what she needs. Oddly, she slowly starts to feel better in spite of her situation. But when she leaves the chapel, the aftereffects of that strange experience overpower her, making her head spin. She finds the nearest chair and plops down, hoping the dizzy spell will subside. Whatever just happened was scary, but she is certain it happened for a reason. As she heads back to the waiting room, a terrible feeling occurs—her father isn’t going to wake up anytime soon. She also knows that she might be stuck with Leona for at least two years. As awful as she feels, she senses that there is something positive coming, even though she has no earthly idea what it is.